Welcome. My purpose here isn’t so much to tell my story as it is to share with others what I have learned from living that story. In the last year, I’ve finally emerged from a struggle that has defined much of my time spent on this earth. I have recovered from the diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder as well as a long history of substance abuse. Ultimately, what saved my life and my soul was not therapy, medication, or rehab but instead…love.
Superficially, the title of my blog is meant to be a play on the phrase “a fragile heart” but it has a more profound meaning as well. For those of you who are unfamiliar with the term, a fractal is defined as:
a curve or geometric figure, each part of which has the same statistical character as the whole. Fractals are useful in modeling structures (such as eroded coastlines or snowflakes) in which similar patterns recur at progressively smaller scales, and in describing partly random or chaotic phenomena such as crystal growth, fluid turbulence, and galaxy formation.
Perhaps the most important lesson that I have learned along the journey out of my own personal wounds is that what we allow ourselves to nurture in our hearts and our minds will be reflected in the world around us. The human condition begins deep within us and projects through all the layers of our psyche endlessly into our environment, much like the infinite iterations in a fractal. If we choose to see ourselves as victims, we will be victims. If we let ourselves believe that the world is a terrifying and horrible place, it will appear to be just that. If we believe people to be inherently malicious and hurtful, that is the way we will perceive them. Our experience of reality will be defined by what we actively cultivate inside of ourselves. Thus, the conclusion is that we were born with all the power we ever needed to change ourselves, change our communities, and change the world. That power is contained in the essence of the human spirit and it is available to anyone who has the will to tap into it.
It is my sincerest wish that anyone who reads this blog find some level of comfort, hope, wisdom, or guidance in what I have to say. Everything written here is merely my own opinion developed from what I have experienced in my own life. Please, don’t take anything that I say at face value. Look for the truth behind my words in your own life; all of our journeys are different but I like to think that we are headed in the same general direction: towards unity. If you learn nothing else from this blog, I hope that you at least come to understand, as I have, that there is nothing on this earth more powerful than love.